It’s not the heat…

Cut wet grass, life’s steam, everywhere is humididity.
Early morning overcast glare, warm July air, breathe fedundity.
Stepping through the door I have a sudden urge for poetry.
It’s St Bridget’s Day, mother, widow, patron of Europe, friend of generosity.
Time is now somehow suspended in the grass glimmer’s bright liquidity.
The granular, angular path disappears in a field of hollyhocks beyond the old oak tree.

summer afternoon

Lockdown

I step out into heavy air

and the long road down the hill

St Thomas says the higher the degree of perfection shown in creation,

the more diverse it is.

A sudden cloudburst leaves

droplet worlds

on the bent dark leaves

of verbena and some unknown prickly bush

and now back at home orange gin and organic tonic

on the plain oak table

sunshine frothing

Holy Week and Easter 2020

Holy Week and Easter 2020

A Series of Free Compositions

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Palm Sunday. At the park early this morning no one yet.

Still sunshine.  Coronavirus has stilled the traffic.

 

Somewhere beyond the trees

two male woodpeckers compete and converse

 

across the luminous green-blue space

of sky and quiet football pitch.

 

———–

 

Good Friday morning.

I put on a dark shirt, old aftershave,

the sky steady blue

in Coronavirus stillness.

The sheer evergreen in the garden

reaches beyond the dark roofline opposite.

 

——–

 

Holy Saturday clear sun,

the path worn into the grass outside the fence

where people with dogs can still walk now

uneven, dry, brown-orange underfoot

but broken open

in the Coronavirus quiet

and birds in the big still bare apple tree squabble.

Life goes on open to warmth and suffering.

 

——-

 

Waiting for an answer to prayer is more than an untestable idea.

The shadows have shortened now

in the back garden and on the fields beyond.

 

——-

 

Park bright yellow-green

gate swinging. It’s Easter Day.

One shiny crow stock still.

 

———-

 

A patch of unstintingly blue sky

out of the kitchen window

is cut by the white windowsill.

Pain may take a long time.

It is not mere formalism to trust the forms of life,

the glass vase full of wilted purple flowers

still bright

three days after Easter.

 

———-

 

By the white house a bee moves jerkily from pink daisy to daisy,

It’s easy to feel you and all things useless.

Alleluia.

I’m jolted from reverie by something tickling my arm:

a cloud of dandelion spores floating

free

radiant, joyous, glorious.

 

——-

 

Clear May Day — and St Joseph the Worker’s Day — and sun shines over
broken arcs of dark tree boughs
and deep blue sky,
the many-coloured blur of passing cars,
glistening dew and residual rain,
the divets and ruts in the dirt path aruond the fenced playpark,
bright green
empty
in lockdown.
For a moment
we look on through the trees.

1 Corinthians 10.1-17

<!– 10 –><!– Warnings from Israel’s History –>

<!– 10 –>I do not want you to be unaware, brothers and sisters,<!– +fGk brothers+e –> that our ancestors were all under the cloud, and all passed through the sea,<!– 2 –>and all were baptized into Moses in the cloud and in the sea,<!– 3 –>and all ate the same spiritual food,<!– 4 –>and all drank the same spiritual drink. For they drank from the spiritual rock that followed them, and the rock was Christ.<!– 5 –>Nevertheless, God was not pleased with most of them, and they were struck down in the wilderness.

<!– 6 –>Now these things occurred as examples for us, so that we might not desire evil as they did.<!– 7 –>Do not become idolaters as some of them did; as it is written, ‘The people sat down to eat and drink, and they rose up to play.’<!– 8 –>We must not indulge in sexual immorality as some of them did, and twenty-three thousand fell in a single day.<!– 9 –>We must not put Christ<!– +fOther ancient authorities read the Lord+e –> to the test, as some of them did, and were destroyed by serpents.<!– 10 –>And do not complain as some of them did, and were destroyed by the destroyer.<!– 11 –>These things happened to them to serve as an example, and they were written down to instruct us, on whom the ends of the ages have come.<!– 12 –>So if you think you are standing, watch out that you do not fall.<!– 13 –>No testing has overtaken you that is not common to everyone. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength, but with the testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it.

<!– 14 –>Therefore, my dear friends,<!– +fGk my beloved+e –> flee from the worship of idols.<!– 15 –>I speak as to sensible people; judge for yourselves what I say.<!– 16 –>The cup of blessing that we bless, is it not a sharing in the blood of Christ? The bread that we break, is it not a sharing in the body of Christ?<!– 17 –>Because there is one bread, we who are many are one body, for we all partake of the one bread.

 

slight change of grey sky 

plum blossom beyond the fence

sandals not quite dry

 

Being pushed to the limit but being given the resources to meet the challenge may seem too neat. Any honest observation of real suffering suggests this is not how it is. but maybe beign honest about that tension is part of  the deal. And maybe that tension of being pushed and having what we need speaks as much to how we take part in the mystery that there is anything at all as it  describes particular social and political situations.  Attentiveness to that mystery can start to shift things. It is awareness of taking part in what gives the possibility of being at all.  

Morning Prayer today brings us the reading 

other-space (Luke 19: 41-48)

14 June 2013
Reading
Luke 19:41-48 (NRSV)
41 As he came near and saw the city, he wept over it, 42 saying, ‘If you, even you, had only recognized on this day the things that make for peace! But now they are hidden from your eyes. 43 Indeed, the days will come upon you, when your enemies will set up ramparts around you and surround you, and hem you in on every side. 44 They will crush you to the ground, you and your children within you, and they will not leave within you one stone upon another; because you did not recognize the time of your visitation from God.’ 45 Then he entered the temple and began to drive out those who were selling things there; 46 and he said, ‘It is written, “My house shall be a house of prayer”; but you have made it a den of robbers.’ 47 Every day he was teaching in the temple. The chief priests, the scribes, and the leaders of the people kept looking for a way to kill him; 48 but they did not find anything they could do, for all the people were spellbound by what they heard.
The Word of the Lord.
Thanks be to God.
We often want to have control over things beyond us and so assume that our acting of failing to act brings events about. Jesus challenges his hearers with the assertion that Jerusalem will be destroyed because its inhabitants did not recognise the time when Christ ‘dwelt among them’. But of course bad things do happen to God-fearing people. Surely Jesus was not being so naive. Another way of looking at this is by asking how things can go really wrong when our priorities get out of whack. There are countless truisms and horror stories from all sections of society and all occupations which tell us that this is true. Of course it’s easy to ignore when we’re caught up in the excitement. The Great Gatsby dramatizes the dizzying drive towards a glittering tomorrow. Jesus is reminding us that when we do not actively leave space in our lives and in our hearts for God as Other—and we experience and serve Him in our neighbour and that Other may be seen in the otherness of the poor, the disabled, the socially marginalized—we run the risk of falling into ruin. As it happened, the Romans did sack Jerusalem and fulfil Jesus’ prophecy. We must not lose sight of the divine other in navel-gazing and run the risk of falling into ourselves.

bright air in rain-drops
back garden grass where you are
somehow twice as deep

persistence (Luke 18: 1-8)

6 June 2013
Reading
Luke 18:1-8 (NRSV)
Then Jesus told them a parable about their need to pray always and not to lose heart. 2He said, ‘In a certain city there was a judge who neither feared God nor had respect for people. 3In that city there was a widow who kept coming to him and saying, “Grant me justice against my opponent.” 4For a while he refused; but later he said to himself, “Though I have no fear of God and no respect for anyone, 5yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will grant her justice, so that she may not wear me out by continually coming.”‘ 6And the Lord said, ‘Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7And will not God grant justice to his chosen ones who cry to him day and night? Will he delay long in helping them? 8I tell you, he will quickly grant justice to them. And yet, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?’
The Word of the Lord.
Thanks be to God.
Keeping faith asks us not to lose heart. We have to continue the turn outward towards the other. This sounds like hard work. Yet not losing heart also brings us towards the other: we open our hearts. ‘Inspiration’ may not always come and we all go through moments and periods of fear, frustration, and feeling fragile. It seems that Jesus today reminds us that all of that is OK. We can be and feel powerless. A widow in the ancient Mediterranean cultures was pretty close to the bottom of the pile. (And a king was of course pretty much at the top!) But keeping faith is not an exercise of power. It is a way of being. Or it is a way of Being. Jesus suggests that God ‘keeps faith’ with those who persistently ‘cry to him’, who turn themselves inside out towards Him. And yet Jesus reminds us of the paradox: the gap between us as beings and God as Being itself can be experienced as our ways of wavering. Jesus uses the idiom of his culture and time, the imagery of the coming Son of Man spoken of by the prophets, to bring home the encounter with the divine which sometimes throws into relief the category difference between Being and beings. And yet for all that gap Jesus reminds us that there is an irreducible bond between Being and beings, an inexhaustible faithfulness a fidelity of origin and image which does not constrain either but which also enlivens the intervals, the embraces, the ellipses between them.

blank afternoon sky
somewhere over the Portway
light freight ecstasy

opening (Luke 14 1-11)

24 May 2013
Luke 14:1-11 (NRSV)

On one occasion when Jesus was going to the house of a leader of the Pharisees to eat a meal on the Sabbath, they were watching him closely. 2Just then, in front of him, there was a man who had dropsy. 3And Jesus asked the lawyers and Pharisees, ‘Is it lawful to cure people on the Sabbath, or not?’ 4But they were silent. So Jesus took him and healed him, and sent him away. 5Then he said to them, ‘If one of you has a child or an ox that has fallen into a well, will you not immediately pull it out on a Sabbath day?’ 6And they could not reply to this. 7 When he noticed how the guests chose the places of honour, he told them a parable. 8‘When you are invited by someone to a wedding banquet, do not sit down at the place of honour, in case someone more distinguished than you has been invited by your host; 9and the host who invited both of you may come and say to you, Give this person your place, and then in disgrace you would start to take the lowest place. 10But when you are invited, go and sit down at the lowest place, so that when your host comes, he may say to you, Friend, move up higher; then you will be honoured in the presence of all who sit at the table with you. 11For all who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.’

The Word of the Lord.
Thanks be to God.

Humility and generosity are at the heart of how Jesus shows people to live. When the religious authorities tried to catch Jesus violating the strict rules about what was permitted on the Sabbath day, he rebuked them not by directly defending his right to cure people then but by asking them if they would hesitate to help a child or an ox who had fallen into a well on a Sabbath day. Giving help is the issue. And in giving help you put someone else first who has less power and honour than you have. So Jesus criticizes those who seek status and do not create chances to receive it as a gift. (The ancient Mediterranean world including Palestine as well as Greece and Rome was characterized by extreme awareness of social status and honour.) It is natural to try to get recognition and to feel diminished or even threatened as people if we are ignored. And recognizing others is essential to the generosity Jesus teaches. Recognition itself is not the problem. It is when we try to get recognition for its own sake that we make ourselves and others unhappy. (We do not need to think of the phenomenon of reality TV programs and the usually-short-lived careers of their stars to be reminded of this.) Jesus does not say that recognition is bad. With the example of the dinner-party feast he shows how making ourselves open to surprise is most valuable. Staying and being humble requires us to remember we don’t have all of the answers all of the time (or all at once) and to be eager for and curious about what surprises will come along.

another grey sky
red boots pointing out the door
footpath washed away

one is more (Luke 13:31-35)

23 May 2013
Luke 13:31-35 (NRSV)
31 At that very hour some Pharisees came and said to him, ‘Get away from here, for Herod wants to kill you.’ 32He said to them, ‘Go and tell that fox for me, Listen, I am casting out demons and performing cures today and tomorrow, and on the third day I finish my work. 33Yet today, tomorrow, and the next day I must be on my way, because it is impossible for a prophet to be killed outside of Jerusalem. 34Jerusalem, Jerusalem, the city that kills the prophets and stones those who are sent to it! How often have I desired to gather your children together as a hen gathers her brood under her wings, and you were not willing! 35See, your house is left to you. And I tell you, you will not see me until the time comes when you say, Blessed is the one who comes in the name of the Lord.’
The Word of the Lord.
Thanks be to God.

Why is it impossible for a prophet to be killed outside of Jerusalem? Our Lord refers to the workings of the Jewish authorities: the great Sanhedrim only sat at Jerusalem, and it was the responsibility of that group to judge a prophet and if he were found to be false, to condemn him and put him to death. Jesus also points out how groups and societies resist change. We might say that the Sanhedrin was not an ‘independent body’ since it was convened at Jerusalem, the centre of power of Israel about which prophets would most probably speaking.
And Jesus here prophesies that Jerusalem will ‘will not see [him] until the time comes when you say, Blessed is the one who comes in the name of the Lord.’ Here Jesus alludes to Psalm 118: 26. There the phrase refers to David as he enters the temple to give thanks to the Lord for his victories in battle and for his ascension to the throne. Jesus seems to use the traditional phrase to refer to his own triumphant arrival. He seems to refer primarily to his future entry into the city before the final days of his ministry and his Crucifixion since he has also mentioned how prophets are killed. He seems simultaneously to refer to his death and to his coming again at the end of time. Jesus’ habit of quoting Hebrew Scripture in talking to his followers shows us how plurivocity-the way one word or symbol suggests more than one other word or symbol—is integral to his message and so to his kingdom. And so power is never simple, power never ‘meaning’ one king dominating other subjects. Experiencing Christ’s rule as transcendent King calls us to live out that plurivocity, affirming both Christ’s absolute lordship and his companionship with us in suffering.

cold twilight air now
beyond that single lamp-post
longer blue shadows

merciful Being merciful (Luke 10: 25-37)

16 May 2013-

Luke 10:25-37 (NRSV)

²⁵ Just then a lawyer stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he said, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” ²⁶ He said to him, “What is written in the law? What do you read there?” ²⁷ He answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind; and your neighbour as yourself.” ²⁸ And he said to him, “You have given the right answer; do this, and you will live.” 29 But wanting to justify himself, he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbour?” ³⁰ Jesus replied, “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell into the hands of robbers, who stripped him, beat him, and went away, leaving him half dead. ³¹ Now by chance a priest was going down that road; and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side. ³² So likewise a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. ³³ But a Samaritan while travelling came near him; and when he saw him, he was moved with pity. ³⁴ He went to him and bandaged his wounds, having poured oil and wine on them. Then he put him on his own animal, brought him to an inn, and took care of him. ³⁵ The next day he took out two denarii, gave them to the innkeeper, and said, ‘Take care of him; and when I come back, I will repay you whatever more you spend.’ ³⁶ Which of these three, do you think, was a neighbour to the man who fell into the hands of the robbers?” ³⁷ He said, “The one who showed him mercy.” Jesus said to him, “Go and do likewise.”

The Word of the Lord.

Thanks be to God.

Mercy is the answer to the question of eternal life. Why? Eternal life can be seen as a gift in return for the self-gift of mercy. We might balk at this if it seemed to imply a Big Person just like us who would give us this gift. God is NOT just like us. Yet if we remember that God Is (‘I AM that I AM’ to echo the Authorised Version’s wording of the divine revelation to Moses), God is Being itself, then perhaps when we give what we are through mercy which is generosity, we can see how this giving sets off ripples, instances of being happening, and when we remember our existence is not a matter of our own achievement or even a matter of our own experience apart from everything else, we may see how our interconnectedness, our taking part as beings in Being itself, allows us to be more intensely by actively helping being to happen. So when we give and receive with trust—even the inn keeper had to believe that that Samaritan would come back to repay him for what he spent looking after the injured man—we remove barriers to love and peace and to life itself and eternity may start to arrive not as an experience of even infinite supposedly-linear time but as an experience of growing bonds with others both on earth and in heaven which draw us on.

 

pearlescent noon cloud

that plum tree gently shaking

bright sky on dark wood

un/knowing (Luke 9:28-36)

10 May 2013

Luke 9:28-36 (NRSV)
28 Now about eight days after these sayings Jesus took with him Peter and John and James, and went up on the mountain to pray. 29 And while he was praying, the appearance of his face changed, and his clothes became dazzling white. 30 Suddenly they saw two men, Moses and Elijah, talking to him. 31 They appeared in glory and were speaking of his departure, which he was about to accomplish at Jerusalem. 32 Now Peter and his companions were weighed down with sleep; but since they had stayed awake, they saw his glory and the two men who stood with him. 33 Just as they were leaving him, Peter said to Jesus, “Master, it is good for us to be here; let us make three dwellings, one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah”-not knowing what he said. 34 While he was saying this, a cloud came and overshadowed them; and they were terrified as they entered the cloud. 35 Then from the cloud came a voice that said, “This is my Son, my Chosen; listen to him!” 36 When the voice had spoken, Jesus was found alone. And they kept silent and in those days told no one any of the things they had seen.
The Word of the Lord.
Thanks be to God.

Clouds can make us think of impending trouble-dark clouds gathering—or just of imminent rain. Clouds often symbolize something unsubstantial-it all went up in a cloud of smoke. Clouds seem always to be not quite there. So when we read or hear of the divine voice from the cloud, if we are inclined to believe Scripture our imaginations may stumble. We want to believe, but a cloud is not a very promising scene for a trustworthy encounter with God. It might be better if He had just spoken directly into our hearts or dreams. But there it is (or isn’t) — a cloud. What do we think?
Well the account of the Transfiguration is true to the way clouds both conceal and reveal things. That is another aspect of the way they are never quite there. And if we think about our own lives, we may well remember times when things have been concealed and revealed almost at the same time. Maybe we were kept from knowing the motivation for someone doing something till long after the fact when the good effects of the act had grown and the questionable motive had dwindled into insignificance. Again and again we realize we only know half the story: something keeps us knowing the rest or shows us the part we do know. And when we encounter something really powerful, often we keep remembering it in different ways, reliving it, reseeding it from different angles. This is a kind of cinematic overshadowing and revealing within our imaginations. And sometimes if what we have experienced is truly immense it makes us wonder aobut ourselves, makes us hesitate to tell other people. The very way clouds hide and reveal and change things suggests that uncertainty about what we experience and what we ‘are’. Today’s account of the Transfiguration tells us about that kind of wonder-questioning, awe, silence-inspiring encounter—that kind of living with and within uncertainty like the disciples entering the cloud.

translucent shadows
beyond late-blooming plum trees
that flooded meadow